his problem is a way...

[october 6, 2007]

Kahapun, nagpunta kmi nila carly at julie za bday ni omay. Dapat 'di ako sasama, pero pumayag na rin ako. Expected ko na, na darating din siya. pati gf nia. Pero auz lng naman zken eh.. Akala ku nga, mazaya na zila kz 1st anniv na nila za 17.. ndi pala.. Nagulat talaga aku nung ngtx xa ng, "Pwd mki2log jan bez..huhu..". Initial reaction ku tlga, ket meh "bez"..? Lam nmn nia kz na z griz na ung bez ku tlga eh.. Nitanung nia pa aku kung kumuzta bday ku..? ang sgot ku, "okei lng.. mzaa nmn kz kzama ku bezfrend ku!" Hindi rin kami maxadu nkpaguzap nun kz andun nga gf nia..zka lah din nmn tlga aku mzzabi kania eh.. nitanung pa aku ni carly kung kumuzta ung feelingz ku for him.. zbi ku, auz lang.. i still love jc.. at lam ku na totoo un! Hanggang za umuwi na kmi.. Dumiretso aku kina griz kz yaw ku mpagalitan.. taz un nga, nagtx na xa..

Nung nalaman ku na naza imus pa xa taz wulah na pera, soobrang nag-alala aku.. nagtaka.. bkt..? anung nangyari..? laluaku nagwori nung nizabi nia na meh kzama xang nga bading at zzma xa dun.. Xempre, di aku ppayag kea nipilit k tlga xa na mgapnta n lng kna griz.. Nitawagan ku pa xa para lng zguruhing di xa zzma za mga un.. Zbi ku, maghihintay aku, kahit na matagal pa.. taz zbi nia, after 30minz, darating xa..

Naghintay aku ahit malamig.. hindi nga alam ni griz na umaliz aku weh.. soobraang nag-aalala na tlga aku zknia.. haiz.. tx aku ng tx peo alang rply.. bumalik aku kna griz pra magpaload..2am na nun.. nitawagan ku xa lit taz nizabi nia na nandun na xa.. Kea nagttatakbo aku agad papuntang gate ng acm ph1.. Nakita ku xang nakatungo.. Anlungkot ng mukha nia.. Ayaw niang zumama zken papunta kna griz kazo, di tlga aku pumayag.. alam ku.. ramdam ku na krlangan nia ng kaibigan naun.. at guztong-guzto ku xa damayan..

Habang naglalakad kami, tinitngnan ku lang xa.. nittanung ku xa kung nuh ba tlga ngyyri..? alam nio ba, nung nakita ku xang umiiyak.. parang guzto ku na rin umiyak.. aukong nakikita xang ganun.. ndi ku kaya.. nuon ku kng xang nkitang ganun.. nakitang umiyak ng ganun.. marami akung guztong itanung peo nanahimik na lng muna aku.. nung dumating na kmi kna griz, nagstay kmi za kubo dun kmi nag-stay.. nitanung ku xa kung anu ba ang problema nia.. xabi nia, xa ang problema mizmo.. Zbi ku zkania, guzto ku magalit na ewan zkania.. Inauz ku ang zarili ku.. oo para zken, peo kazali xa za dahilan.. Lumayo aku para auzin ang zarili ku.. Inspiration ki nga xa eh.. Lagi ku, nizazaizip ung mga nizabi nia zken.. haiz.. taz naun, nakikita ku xang gantoh..? nalulungkit tlga aku.. di ku na napigilan, napaiyak na aku.. Mahalaga pa rin xa para zken.. kaya aukong nakikita xang nagkkaganun..

Ramdam ku lga ung bigat nung prob nia.. ung lungkot ung nangingibabaw zmen.. antahimik ng paligid.. malakaz pa ung ihip ng hangin.. soobrang anlungkot tlga.. haiz.. Unti-unt nia nikwentoh ung prob nia.. za family, za studies.. keh diana.. a zarili nia.. Guzto kung meh gawin, peo lah aku magawa.. nipapazok nia na aku za hauz nila griz, peo lah tlaga aku balak.. kahit na zbihin nia na kaya na nia ung zarili nia, aukong iwan xa na ganun xa.. ndi ku kaya.. Inabot na kami ng umaga dun, naglakad-lakad kami para magpaload.. guzto ku makatulong kahit panu.. kea, nakaizip aku ng paraan.. kelangan k pa ng tulong ng friend k para dun.. Niiwan ku xa za kubo kz naghhanap aku ng mapapaloadan lit.. zabi ku wag xa aaliz, nag-aalaa aku na bka di ku na xa mkita pagbalk ku, kea nagmmadali aku pabalik.. nakita ku xa za meh half-court.. na-relief aku nun.. haiz.. Bumalik aku kna griz.. zbi ku, una na aku.. lam ku, mejo tampo xa.. peo kelanagan tlga aku ni rolando.. nihintay na nmin ni yopip ung clzm8 ku nung 4thyr......

Nihintay muna nia aku makazakay ng tric.. nung nza tric na aku, nititingnan ku pa rin xa muala za likod.. at nkita ku, na nakatingin din xa za nizazakyan kung tric.. Alam kung mali, peo til now.. naiizip ku pa ri xa.. bilang izang kaibigan, soobrang nag-aalala aku zkania.. Zana okei lng xa.. Guzto ku tlga na mzaya xa.. haiz.. Nung nakauwi na aku ng hauz, bagu aku matulog, guzto zguruhin na nza hauz na xa.. kea ntx ku xa na itx aku pag nza hauz na xa.. nung na-recieve ku ung msg nia.. kaya ku na matulog..
Iza lang naman ang guzto ku weh.. zana, maging mazaya xa... un lang talaga.. eversinz, un lang lgi ku niiizip ku for him.. Zana maging maauz na lahat zkania.. Zana maging okei na ri xa... haiz.. Lagi lang naman aku nandito para zkania..

yopipz

march 24, 2007
12:48-02:04 am


your sedate eyes, i want it to be mine
believing that colors define everything
and my aggression over you enters my imagination,
as if i can seize you and take away out of your world
im dreaming for something that's new for my soul
but you've made me realize one thing and it brings me down


im the princess of the vampires, and who are you?
some thoughts can make words shallow
hidden sorrows are with us.
and as i see you alight with confusions,
feel safe. me, myself and i will catch you.
(will always be there for you)
will always be your clouds from the sky.

halt for being a lover
take some appreciation and let memories to be kept
don't let your moments to be shattered
share your laughters and tears
to the one you chose to be with.
just call me up if your happiness is now with you.
that's all what i wanted for...
and my pains would fade away.

don't mind those people does have hatred on me.can't you just trust me for what you have known on me
yes, i wnt to be on top of this
but hey, i gave everything just to be with you.

i didn't blame you for my failures
it's hard for me to forget
the moments.. the memories.. the feelings..
it's hard to resist the paind.. the sufferings..
but what's the use of loving someone bbut doesn't love me back.
it's been four years .
yes, it's hard but i know i can do it.


am i sure, i woyuld feel lost without you?
just wanna speak for what i want is
i love you.. i hate you..
but i'll never be a ghost for you
'coz i don't want you to feel alone
true love was almost there...
and yet, it lost...

i'm so tired for waiting for you.
telling and doing such things for you.
but it doesn't mean, it'll gonna end up on this
you have my words, we have the promise.
yes, certain things were too difficult for us.
but you must understand, that life is not all about you.
enogh expectations.. enough frustrations..
acceptance is now here..
and i love to be your bestfriend forever..


i thank you.. i'm sorry..
but it's not our last goodbye..
emotions will always be with us..
and my pains would fade away.

YOPIP (ARRANGED BY EMMENUEL CAGARA AND CARLY ANNE RELOVA)

INTRO: D – A – (2x)

D—
Your sedate eyes I want it
A--
Undefying colors can define
As if I can seize you

D—
I am dreaming
To take you out
A--
To take you out in your world
B –A --G—(weak)
Just to be with you forever

Chorus:
D A
But I’m halt and lame
Bm G
For being a lover
D A Bm
And I feel giving up
D A Bm
So please give me a reason

Interlude(intro chords)
Hidden sorrows are with us
But will you please recognize all the the thigs Ive done for you
Will you cherish our companion
Promise tokeep until eternity, eternity

[repeat chorus]
adlib
[repeat chorus]
G D A B G D
give me a reason to believe yopip

underworld

(MAY 25,2007[08:42-09:39pm])

It’s an endless time of sacrificing.
Suddenly, weakness seems to die.
I couldn’t see the dark days of mine.
The rain seeks for a place to stay.
You as my saviour, opens the way out of the lake of doubt.
Engage me to an unbroken pictures of love.
you moved me in a real world as it is
and take me away from my wicked life.

[refrain 1]
feel the sunset that hunts our soul.
Kiss the tears and whisper relief.
Please save me… I want you to save me…

[chorus]
this war of illusions
the strength of undecided moments
caught me under my world.
The tastes of the bloods, the bites of memories that bounds.
You touched me, and it brings out my famous life under this world.
I’ve fought for my self alone.
Yet, this scene had complete our worth.


Giving ourselves chance to reminisce.
The wounds needed to be heal.
But we still have our eternal smile.
And santity holds our faith.
Haul me fom the dead that leads to our sorrows.
As we trying to steal the emotions fiiled of untrue realizations.
‘coz you taught me to see those things which is not real to be mine.

[refrain 2]
feel the sunset that hunts our soul.
Kiss the my smile and whisper prayers.
You saved me… you saved me…

[repeat chorus]

It has always been said that everything happens for a reason.
And it’s you ho I’ve decided to believed in.
Walking away from the emptiness tells me to hold on to someone
Who has his own reasons of learning.
And we all have our own way to make the story shorter.

[repeat chorus & refrain 2]



³♥♥♥frustratins ko talaga gumawa ng sariling kanta..
ahahah..
kzu, gang lyrics lan aku..
pede na rin ba..?
ahahah..
ganian aku pag naddepressed..
o kea soobrang inlove..
wee..
para sa honey ko tuh..
napag usapan lan naming ung movie na underworld..
xa ung warewolf..ako ung vampire..parang ung mga bida..
aheheh..♥♥♥

EMPTY

(may 24,2007[01:03-01:38am])


hindi ko alam kung anong mararamdaman ko.
Gusto ko matuwa. Gusto kong ngumiti.
Pero bakit nauuna ang luha sa lahat?
Pinipilit ko lumaban para maipakita sa’yo na kaya ko,
Pero kahit ganun, alam kong mahna pa rin ako.

[refrain]
sana maramdaman mo ang nais kong ipahiwatig
para sa’yo… para sa’tin…
walang magbabago.

[chorus]
alam kong kahit ganito, masaya ang katapusan.
Ang bawat bagay ay may sariling kulay.
Nadarama ko ang malamig na hangin.
Lahat tayo ay may kakayahang awitin ang bawat awit.
Ayokong alallahanin ang bawat kamalian.
Hindi na ako nag-iisa
Salamat sa bawat salitang nagturo sa’kin ng lahat.


Alam mo bang para sa’yo ang kantang ito.
Gusto kong maramdaman mo ang bawat salitang nais kong sabihin.
Ayokong ispin mong nakakulong pa rin ako sa nakaraan.
Nais kong ipagsigawan sa lahat na nahanap ko na ang sarili ko.
Ang ngiti sa akin ngayon ay mas matimbang na kaysa sa naging luha ng aking puso.

[repeat refrain & chorus]

[bridge]
gusto kong hawakan ang iyong mga kamay.
Pagmasdan ang bawat ngiti sa’yong labi.
Makita ang saya sa’yong mga mata.
Sabayan ang bawat hakbang ng iyong mga paa.
Damhin ang bawat hiling sa’yong puso.
Mahalin ka ng walang katumbas kundi ang iyong kaligayan. . .kaibigan.

Ayokong alalahanin ang bawat kamalian.
Hindi na akonag-iisa
Salamat sa bawat salitang nagturo sa’kin ng lahat.


sana maramdaman mo ang nais kong ipahiwatig
para sa’yo… para sa’tin…
walang magbabago.

[maz mahirap mag-isip ng thoughts for tagalog song?
Anhirap kzi itugma nung ibang words..
Para kaninu nga ba tuh..?
Halata nmn dba..?
Heheh..]